Indy

Right from the beginning, from my earliest memory and probably before, I was a rebel in the truest sense of the word. I hated, even despised control or any authority over my life in any way.

I experienced many traumatic things very early in my childhood. I was constantly filled with fear and terror because I never knew what was going to happen to me from one moment to the next. Although I thought my life was normal, I learned, after a while, it wasn't. I know my mom loved me. She did the best she could to give me a normal life. She had no idea, however, of the physical and sexual abuse that I went through all my growing up years. I lived every waking moment as a nightmare filled with pain and darkness.

As I went into my early teen years, I was full of anger, hate and rage. Oh, how I wanted to hurt something, anything! I vandalized graveyards and churches. I got into so many situations where I was branded as incorrigible. Overwhelmed by all I was going through, I became desperate for anything that would change my life.

Quite by accident, I began cutting myself...with broken glass, sharp rocks, knives, anything that would draw blood and leave a scar to remember it. The more it hurt, the better my quickly deteriorating mind liked it. I got involved in drugs and alcohol. In time, I became an alcoholic and did every drug I could get. I was overcome with a desire to alter my reality in any way I could.

At age 14, I got involved in the occult. The supernatural world began to open up to me in a way I had not expected. I had seen and known spirits since I was about 3 years old. They had been a real part of my life for as long as I could remember. Now, I began to understand who these entities were. They were now even more real to me than any human. I craved their presence. I existed for it.

People who were very high in witchcraft began approaching me and I went deeper into the occult with them. Over time, I became a student of satanism....then demonolatry.

Strangely enough, at some point during this period, I decided to go to church. My mom was a devout Christian. God was tugging on my heart very strongly, but I never knew it was Him. He was calling me to Him......but I just thought it was another supernatural "thing". So, I decided I would do "the Christian thing". At the time, I truly thought it the right thing to do. For the next few years, however, I would alternate between serving God and serving satan.....literally. I never actually gave my heart and life to God, I just played a religious game...one I didn't realize then.

Oh, I was soooooooo empty! And so confused! I had been committed to different mental institutions many times. I was under therapy with many different psychiatrists. They put me on a ton of medication for several different diagnosis..... severe depression with psychosis, bi-polar disorder, multiple personalities and many things in-between. My life was in total shambles! I heard voices continuously...I could barely function unless an alternate personality (which I later understood was a demon) took control. I was doing things, horrible things, of which I had no memory. There were many hours, days that I couldn't remember at all! Finally, I was sick of it. I attempted suicide a few times, but was saved unexpectedly. All I could think of was how to successfully die. I was consumed with death! I wanted, needed to die.....but then something very unexpected happened.

Somehow, someway, the address for Freedom Life Ministries got saved in my file. ( I have NO memory of saving it at all). I contacted Gerald and after a few correspondences, we set up a time for me to drive to TN and meet with the Freedom Life team. I honestly don't know how I got there. I have very little memory of that 6 hour trip. But, I wanted to be free so badly! I wasn't even sure what "free" meant, but it had to be better than the hell I was living in!

I met with them and they prayed with me and explained how Jesus had died to set me free. They confronted many demons that were controlling me and through the power of the Lord Jesus, my whole life was radically changed!

It has been a process of many steps, but now I am able to say, " Jesus set me free and He wants to set you free, too!" You are so important to God! He has already done everything needed to set you free from satan!

Argue all you want, search the world over for reasons to prove that you are the exception to the rule. It won't change a thing. Jesus died to set you free. Satan thought he'd own me forever, but every blood oath and pact I made with every demon of hell was destroyed by the wonderful Blood of Jesus!

So, what are you waiting for? Jesus wants to set you free from whatever is destroying you. He is the only One that can.....Jesus......only Jesus.